Dear, Little one

Dear little one, 
                 I know I haven't paid much attention to you, Its been a rough time in this cruel adult world. I had to protect us and make sure you were OK. I must tell you little one I am not OK despite my victories. I did not cry, hurt, or give up, I took my emotions and told them they weren't welcomed. I did not know they were you trying to remind me you were still there. I know I dismissed you but you still were not strong enough to understand this life. I forget you are there sometimes and don't see how much you are hurting since i have leaned how to survive and ignoring you was the only way i could. 
no one taught you how to deal with disappointments, tragedies, and loss. I left you because
one of us had to keep going, you were innocent and full of life. I had to protect your innocence so i left you temporarily and fought these battles on my own. I am now breaking without you since you are still a part of me. I am forgetting who I am and I need you to forgive me for not taking responsibility for you. Your true innocence is who I am. I am scared to have someone hurt you and change your beauty that I hold on to for dear life. I forget we are the same. Each day I see your strength fight its way through this broken women and touch the lives of others with your warm force. You are just as strong as me little one if not stronger. I am sorry for trying to shelter you, for I am the one that needs you to shelter me now. I prepared your walls and titanium is what I have built for you. I am surrendering my control to you, for now i know you will always be protected. Its time for you to take the front line and finally show the world who you really are. I am sorry it took this long but understand, you were left behind and i had to fix the mistakes of others in order for you to never lose your beauty. Don't be scared little one you have always been a fighter even when I tried to protect you. Fill this world with your beauty, it desperately needs it and so do I. Show them what you have shown me, spread your love, for this world needs it. I will be here watching you change this world like it was intended. You understand now what your purpose is and I cant wait to see your greatness break free.